I just took a peek at my old blog and this was the last substantial post before purchasing a domain. It was categorized under ‘relationshits’.
I’m amazed that in less than two years my views on relationships have changed so drastically. I found my great love. I started a family. There’s a wedding in my ( distant!) future. I’m so incredibly happy. Not all the time, of course, and not for every corner of my life. I have a long way to go if I even get there. But this little corner? This little cottage? It’s all ours and it feels so damn right.
Posted on May 8, 2011by Brittney
A Novel Outline, Annotated
Title: 2010: A Year in the Life of a Slacker as Chronicled by Failed Relationships. I outlined it month by month, new year to new year. Every event was 100% true. Step outline is as follows:
- NYE, year of yeses, george, new years day.
- City trip, AC
- Valentines day
- City trip 2, moving in
- Birthday, grandma, gig
- Breakup, barcelo, blind date, death, message (April)
- Blind date # 2, bored fuck
- City trip, pity, adventures in online dating
- Memorial day weekend
- Birthday weekend
- get together, vibes
- online dating continues, questioned
- motivating the unmotivated
- the wedding, the breakup
- the scare, the new guy
- the pattern, the realization
- new years again
I last saved the draft in March, ready to expose everyone around me, not giving a shit. I knew this included changing my name and moving far, far away from all the people I exposed. Continue reading
Over the years, time and time again, I’ve attempted to start a blog that went nowhere.
The truth is that I would get way too caught up in the minutiae -the photos, the content, the marketability- that I would read and research and hem and haw until-poof! The inspiration was gone and I was on to the next one.
The truth is, I’m not a Stepford Mom and I never will be. We live in a glorified studio apartment, not an easy breezy suburban home. Hannah eats Gerber, not organically grown homemade baby food. I don’t make Pinterest Perfect appetizers, I throw pre-made spring rolls in the oven before the Giants game. Sometimes I make chili. A delicious, unapologetic , spicy, not pretty at ALL chili. I’ve wanted to decorate our Dollar Tree coffee mugs with Sharpie but I just haven’t gotten around to it yet. And I’m not apologizing for any of this.
I am finally ready do what I’ve wanted to do for years and just write.
No holds barred. About our teeny tiny home and our not so teeny tiny girl. I am working on photographing more and in the process I will figure out how to get the most out of my increasingly obsolete Coolpix camera. I will learn by doing, not obsessing.
I will compile my grandma’s recipes in that book I got a year ago. I will do my best to catch up with Hannah’s baby books ( yes, books). I will focus on comfort over cuteness for our little home. And yes, I will attempt the Pinterest Perfect first birthday party for our little Bear. I have 7 months to plan, no excuses!
2009- The year of YES
2010- The year of NO
2011- The year of RISK
2012- The year of FAMILY
2013? The year of DO.